Moments of Inertia by Rachel Crawford

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Into the Unknown

Filed Under: Personal

Unsure how willing or able I am to comment on the ongoing matters1, I will assume you know what happened at the beginning of this week and therefore understand that it means I am now 100% on the lookout for a new way to make an income.

Hopefully one that will treat me better.

I’ve updated my About page on this site and made posts about job-hunting on social media, including my unhappily-resurrected LinkedIn. A list of potential opportunities is being compiled, leads are being pursued, and one (1) application has been sent.

In the in-between time I have things to keep me busy:

  • Model reviews for Goonhammer, like this one about the Crann Guardians for Conquest’s Weaver Courts faction. My plan for today is to finish my review of the Coill Draic.
  • Educational projects and possible portfolio pieces. Recently I’ve been dipping my toe into Odin, a C-like language which has great out-the-box functionality for game dev. It would be great to use this chance to get a game out.

I also need to budget quite aggressively to make sure my savings stretch however long it may take for my incomings to match my outgoings again. I’ll be alright though.

And I probably need to get a lodger, a step which is overdue anyway – it’s felt wasteful to live alone in my big flat ever since Nat moved out – and while Kara and I are hoping to get a place together, that no longer feels likely to happen this year.

Onwards and upwards, I guess.

  1. I will at least say that yesterday I attended one of my final Organizing Committee meetings for the union at Rockstar Games. I felt sad, but I also felt hopeful in a way I never have before. The task is in new hands, and they are strong. ↩

2026

Filed Under: Personal

I’m entering 2026 in a bit of a broken state.

Two months of stress, bookending an already high-pressure year, have reduced me to a worn-out nub. Too anxious to rest, my sleeps has been fitful and short. My immune system is burned out and I have caught yet another cold. I am all aches, pains, blotchy skin and bloodshot eyes.

I don’t think I’ve ever had a December crash quite so complete.

I’m also grieving. I’m grieving what was. I’m grieving what could have been. There is a deep sadness in my heart that will take a long time to pass.

2026 will not be the year I was imagining it would be. Regardless of what happens in court next week I will have to improvise in the months to come. The unknown is scary.

All I can do now is rest, hope, and fight like hell.

I wish you all the best for 2026.

August Hobby

Filed Under: Hobby

Tagged: Claymore, Warhammer, Age of Sigmar, Gloomspite Gitz, Cities of Sigmar, Magewinds

August. Perfidious August. In August, Edinburgh goes mad. I go mad with it, and either go along with it or try to escape from it. This year I attempted a half-hearted escape, attending very few Fringe shows but not leaving the city entirely. I could have spent a lot more time hobbying, but instead I spent most of two whole weekends working on Magewinds. I’ll talk about that after talking about what I managed to get done hobby-wise.

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